Nutters

There are many creeps out there in the world. And I can't believe I blogged about that creep from last week *shudders*. Just thinking about him makes me feel grossed out.

I get my news from online news feeds, websites, etc.. There are so many wackos out there, people with no apathy, people with violent appetites, shark-like people with big careers and no friends, people who think they can get away with everything. These are people you hope you never have to meet in your lifetime.

Then, I look inward to my own group of friends, and depression sets. Those nutty people aren't just mingling in the "outside world." They are all around us and in our own network of people. We are just more tolerant of them because we know they "mean no harm". And until something explosive happens, the curtain won't be pulled back and you'll never see a friend the way the rest of the world views him/her.

Well, my own event was not as explosive. It was more like an implosion, colliding into itself, and more anti-climactic than a build-up of emotions. It actually feels like defeat, although I'm not sure what the battle was all about. Was the battle worth fighting? I hope so, yet in my uncertainty, I tell myself it doesn't really matter anymore because a relationship can only be repaired so far, and it can only be repaired if there's an effort on both sides.

Those few that helped to hold me up, brought a bit of sense back into me, although I'm still feeling upset and disturbed by everything. Sometimes I feel like the one who's gone nutters, but the feeling will pass.